4 years have past and I didnt give much of an update since, plus, the last one was really light! I guess this one will be the same, probably because the internet has changed so much and you never know who is reading this, which made it a lot less attractive. I use to write this for myself, and then started realizing that they were actually people reading me (what should I expect) :)
The particular people who still remain today in my night dreams will probably pass by in a lose moment of their time, and see I have only written very little, through not so much has happened a lot of time has passed and its about time to realise how fast life passes by. I still remeber the old man saying that to me, and I guess one day, maybe I'll be saying this to someone else.
Wish I could have kept contact with one person that I lost contact with, surely for being wrong, but I miss that person so much, had a dream last night were for some reason I saw her. This goes back over 20 years ago nearly and yet it feels like if it was yesterday and today all day I have been thinking of her, and looking her up on internet with absolutely no luck of finding anything, a photo, a text,... well, just something, but nope... nada! :/ Its hard to not know anything about someone that has been and is part of yourself, very hard. You'd just like to know how is this person doing, is she alive, is she happy, is the family ok.... all these questions which one would probably not ask himself if it was not that anchored in the soul. I want to beleive that one day I will know where that person is and maybe one day this person will fogive me all my errors, and have a cup of tea with me just as good friends 20 or more years later before one goes for ever.
Anyway, I guess thats the reason I came here, I don't think I ahve much of an update to give to anyone thats know around, apart from that person. Im up in the jungle mountains surrounded of monkeys and birds, planting tree's for the next generation, and going through my life like all of us do doing there things. I have had some really rough time with my son death before birth which is probably the second hardest ever emotion I go through, but that's life I guess, what can you do, things happen to you for a reason they say,...
Anyway, if my old friend passes through here, leave me a message or something, I would so love to hear from you and know how you're doing. problem with your visit in my dreams is that I don't have time to remember it when opening my eyes....
(I know, that update sucks, but who cares) :) you know where you find me!
