I might want to share my experiences, I might just want to write to myself, I already found this so useful sometimes.Anyway, it's here, Enjoy or leave it... In any case, thanks for the visit and good luck to you!
Monday, March 20, 2006
What's with Henna and White Hairs ? (Q/A)
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
Bana road

I have just spent a two days trip further to the North to install a Radio Room. The place I went to is called Bana. I am not sure it is written on any map as it is small and deep into the core of the Northern Mountains. To get there you have to use some snaky slippery, extremely narrow road built-in the cliff of the mountains. When the mission was submitted, I wanted to arrange myself a trip via Helicopter, it was meant to be much more practical and safe. However, a colleague of mine also wanted to join for this special expedition to this no tourist seen place, so the trip by chopper was cancelled and replaced by a 4x4 road trip.
In order for us to depart, we had to get an escort from the police station. The reasons to these mandatory escorts are still unclear. No one here knows exactly, the real purpose of this escort. It’s meant to be for our protection the police says, but in fact, rumors tells that it could well be that Pakistan does not want certain people to lose themselves in some areas where certain things would be seen ( let free your imagination). This makes it a very intriguing topic, but for my own safety I prefer to not dig into this. Once we got our escort, we started heading north and begin our journey.

Bana is one of the most earthquake affected area from the 2005 quake, and need a lots of support from humanitarian still. Installing a Radio Room there would allow more efficiency in the movement of this mountainous area. Food, Tents, Medical…etc distribution is a lot easier when you can coordinate things. There is no electricity there, no GSM network, and nothing modern like we easily find in big towns. We started working as soon as we arrived there, and the first obstacle on the way was to find good place to set the Radio room tent. Once this was localized, we then started installing the equipment and try to get the job done as soon as we could. We were only given 24 hours to accomplish this installation and return to base. Unfortunately, as the sun fell very behind the high mountains, soon we were in the dark, and no more work was possible. By this time, it was the moment to look for a place to sleep, and we only found this in on of the spare tents which were lying near by. We set our beds, and heated the room with Gas heater.
This was only 7:00 when we were done and ready to sleep, but I wasn’t sleepy, and neither was the Pakistanis driver which took us there so we both decided to head to the center of the village and check out for a place to eat! We went into one of them and there I could not think of me leaving this restaurant (hotel they call it) without having some footage of it. I asked my friend (the driver) Khurram if he thinks they would mind if I was to make a short movie with them, and he said: “They will love it; they have never seen a camera”. He asked them and they enthusiastically given their go ahead! I ran to the tent and got my video camera! It was certainly one of the best footage I had the chance to take since I have started using a camera. There were these men in the kitchen which itself was outside under a porch where they had set some wood fire cookers. The light was provided by the fires and the men where on the spot to make me some delicious local meals. Unfortunately, having been food poisoned the two days before, I was still worried of getting some bad stomach, so didn’t enjoy any of it but the making of it video taped was my pleasure.I guess seeing the video of this would be just self explanatory and certainly much more entertaining that “I” writing but have not found a way yet to share videos. The night went by with some really deep sleep and the morning arrived with its extremely cold and humid clothes! As there was nothing there, we didn’t get the pleasure of a breakfast watching the mountain, and immediately went on with the left out work from the day before. The mission was completed by noon, and soon we were ready to go! Of course, before that, I wanted to enjoy a little more the company of Khurram and his expertise of the place also to get to one of the high point in the mountain further up! It was worth the trip! Only about 15 minutes from the tent, and high up in the mountains was this riz culture and farmers working as hard as ever with for landscape background the entire valley we had taken so much time to come across from! Just stunning, what more can I say! We made our way out with as much pleasure as the way in, and reached Battagram in early afternoon! Mission completed the heart full of amazement and questions about how far can go the wonderfulness of Nature!
To top up the last couple of days event, this morning, while I was just waking up from a deep sleep 7 hours, I heard a massive noise! It was like if you take a bag full of round stones and shake the bag as strong as you can! Stick a microphone in the bag, gradually bring up the volume on the amplifier, and listen!
This was a 5.1 magnitude earthquake right near by our place. As I was lying on the ground I have not felt the vibration, but all the people in the office have ran out, and the one in the kitchen tent literally saw the whole kitchen set bouncing from one side of the huge tent to the other one! (You can check the earthquake status on a daily bases at www.iris.edu (seismic monitor).
What a Blast this week! ;-)
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Pakistan childrens

Manserah, contemplation.

I am now arrived in Manserah (North East) Pakistan where most of the humanitarian traffic passes by. It is located in a beautiful valley and of course surrounded of uncredible mountains. It also has some magnificiant Rice cultures and a beautiful contrast in color with the brown, white, black, and green mountains. The clouds thickness and opacity gives this uncredible 3 dimensional effect to the already so suprising view. I have sat there after finishing a job and stood there for ever so much the Nature around was incredible. Then while observing and breathing fully this amazing moment, I started noticing the peoples. All these people you can freely observe whithout having to be seen. When you are sitting up here, you dont get seen by people, but you see them naturaly behaving and doing their day to day things..... This brought me to remember where I am and to maybe find a meaning to my life at the moment.
In the end, I concluded that my life at the moment, is just a journey through others'e one.
;-)
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Number One Gate...
Anyway, changing subject, its been a few amazing last days! This Bagh in kasmir is simply breath less experience. After this day of downtime and depress, i woke up the next day on a good vibe! the day was just very proficient, Managed to get a tent from the pakistanese army after 5 hours meeting with lieutnants, colonels, god know who else to sign paper proving that the PK army had given a tent!!! wow, the funny part is that this tent was donated before after the earthquake my us... Anyway, this is not my point in writting tonight.. After this day of good work, I ended at the gate with the guards. The guards are national staff whom make sure the entry of the camp is clear of any threat. I did met a few of them already before that day, but never got into there intimacy of late evenings at the gate. There where they all gather together and talk for ages. That evening two of them, Zen & Kashi decided to take me out the camp for a little walk. We are not allowed normaly to get out the camp after nightfall, but this day, I broke the rule and went with them. We walked only about 3 minutes down to the cliff which dominates the village and its lights! It was an amazing moment where we chatted for so long and where work was not related to any of the conversasion we were having. I was discovering our a Pakistanese live and what are the 30's like for a national person. I havd a simply amazing time, and when we returned we sat all together again at the front gate. These people are beautifull, they are like childs laughing about simple thing such as arguing on about how many continent there is on the planet, and then one would step up and say something funny like "2" and everyone would laugh like kids! Ill try to get a shot of these new friends from the Number one Gate! :)
Monday, March 06, 2006
Oouchh... an other wierd evening...
What I usually do to try and feel better, I retire to my 3m square compartiment in one of the collective tents and try to get away/out from here. This I may try it by surfing the web, waiting for anyone to show up on msn and share a moment of chit chat, or by watching a DVD. Here again, when you have done this again and again, you then just lie and watch the roof hoping for something. At this stage you could think that its the end of this crazzy chain of event, but nope... because then you start thinking about your life, about your friends, about everything.. and there you never know where it goes. I'll confess that most of the time it goes to, what;s next? where is my beloved... what is the family doing....etc. Its just so wierd and hard! In the meantime, what I do is passionating in terms of meeting all these people of the world and seeing them saved from a certain death sometimes, and the children being given something while they've lost all.. How paradoxal is this, while you give all you have in a cause or in a simple feeling of love for them you carry with you, you feel yourself isolated from the love of anyone you know... you feel so alone sometimes... I am still at the stage of wondering if this is just me having a lake of experience in the subject or if its just if its normal time to time to feel like... All I feel so far while doing this job is that you receive more love from these passenger which you are here for, children eldery people and poor victims of aweful disaster/massacre, than from the people you would expect to be the one to care about you. Those you care so much about, for one reason or an other, are those who just never have a nice word for you which would mean so much to you. I guess having a more "rational" life back there in the modern world brings with it, indifference and a lose of value and beleif in universal love. I no more beleive much in this feeling we call love, and trust with all our soul and body... its just doesnt make sense to me no more... I hope one day, it will mean something again as it does in the modern world, but for now, love is just about loving every one who gives you this little bit of time, this little bit of affection and sympatie to make that all this lonelyness becomes easier. Now if you say you should go home and live this more rational life.
I would certainly say right now, if going back home and living there, in this society where you may get loved by some people and get forgotten whenabout you need them the most, I'd rather still think about it. At least here, even if its not paradise, you meet random people with real simple loving energy which gives a sense to your presence here....
anyway, emptied my bag, feeling better.... writting to myself has always turned out to be the best therapie in these moments.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
I miss you my "Z"!!
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Travel in Style Or your own way ?
Beautiful ?


Journey aboard of a Toyota pickup!

Next, we plan to take a two days trip on the week end and get up a higher mountain which should allow us to see the feets of the K2 mountain chain which are just about the border with China! of course, K2 is a little far to be seen from here, but just to see the feets of it will be an exalting moment! Inshallah, I will get the chance to head up to K2 sometimes when I get a few days off! (K2 is on the border with China and is the second highest mountain in the world at 8611m).
For those with Google Earth check this one out :
http://bbs.keyhole.com/ubb/download.php?Number=139207

Saturday, February 25, 2006
My home, my private space, my identity

Just now, I am writting from this little place, I have, and where I can spend time: sleeping and relaxing, thinking and writting, listening to music, getting away from everything and anyone.... its the place where I only spend so little time, but where I enjoy so much freedom. Of course, im talking about my compartement (bed) in the common tent shared by about 20 other people.
We have those beautiful separations which only isolate you from the other regards, I say, "from the look" because, you still can hear, can smell..etc everything. After all, it is only a thick sheet separation between the neightbourgh and yourself. Itimacy isnt the best thing here, but where your mind goes is pure freedom. Regardless of the noise and smells, when I travel there I then can allow myself all the fantasy and dreams I ever wish to have, I can rewind parts of my life and revisit my experiences, be it pain, be it love, be it anything, its always with an amazing pleasure that meet You in my thought, You, My people, the Ones I have shared something with at any time in my life. Be it Love, be it Friendship or just a random minute, it has been part of my thoughts many times. This is how I feel when isolate from all, and sometimes lonely. It is of course not all green like it looks. For sure I love my work, I love life, but most of all, I love you. you who read my web, my email, or make my journey through life such an extraordinary trip. . And in all this Green, there is the Other Side, this one even Greener, where sometimes I wish I would be, with you my people.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Houses of the world

Tonight, starts a new type of post. I thought it would be interesting to compare peoples homes and living conditions from different countries. I shall hope to keep this updated on a regular bases with new pictures. The first pic will go to Sudan! Since is a place where I have spent my first 8 month on this mission's job, it was needed to honor it! In sudan, these houses are called "Tukels", they are built of dried mud and dried grass/weat? they aren't water proof, and very vulnerable to fire! Inside, you usualy find the most modest furnishement with one/two bed(s) (usualy made of colorful strings) , a large pot , and that is pretty much it! the surrounding is for most made of a little perimeter, in which you might find more beds, a donkey, kids, or plastic bags in a lots of cases! Plastic bags, at least in Darfur states are given with almost anything you may buy. They are extremely thin, and fragile. Unfortunately, also very light, as a result, since litters are not available anywhere, the streets and villages usualy hold a huge population of the plastic bags which migrates along with the wind and eventualy die on one of these houses perimeter.... The "tucool" is a rather popular house, but it may be unaccessible to some who then live under 4 wooden sticks and a roof of dried herbs/grass!
Voila, see you next time for an other house of the world.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Thanks the welders!


But here I am with my brand new beautiful red brackets!!! It was worth the wait, after 1 day and an half, I managed to get the very well hand built brackets! The red painting is mine tho! :) An other few hours later and the antenna was up! This made my day and happy day. Thanks to that antenna the NGO's in the district can from now on use our network to get the logistics or what ever needs coordination going! yiiipeee...
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Beaten my fears, got the job done!

It took me a few days of thinking before i felt able to get up there. Then, yesterday early morning, I decided that it was the time to go for it and just beat the adrenaline rush! I made the first 25 meters with no big problems, but past that stage, I started sweating a lot and feeling the moves of the tower. It wasn't like properly moving as a tree would do, but it was twisting on it self and all the way through down to the ground! The most interesting part in this is that you should have no reasons to fear anything! The tower is usually well maintained by iron wires on all side, and is designed to support such an event! However, it is the mind which is not design at this stage to just walk up there like on the sandy beach! It took me such an effort to get through this "what about if...... is it going to hold..... am I really abe to......" questions. Eventually I found the motivations to make it up the top and install the required stuff up there! The reward: an absolutely stunning panoramic view on the whole camp and its surrounding which you would not guess from the ground! when you are up there you feel like you are invisible to all, and that you can observe a whole world of activities. Since you have a fairly long distance view, you can choose to live in the view down the tower, or just about over there in the mountains near by! Then, just like it this wasnt enough, once you are down the tower, you feel happy, very happy and it is not because you have been up there watching the view, but it is because you have managed to do something you thought you would not be able to do! This is what I think is the important thing to keep from this! I will always remember this experience and carry it with me as much as I can! Sometimes, its worth a try to fight with yourself to grow!
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Who said, oh! you have cold feets baby! 8=)

Welcome to Kasmir

Anyway, as things goes, I hope I will have more pictures like the one below to offer you! Until then, I m going back to work. ;-)
Friday, February 17, 2006
MI26: This things is just unreal!

Thursday, February 16, 2006
Media's stupidity vs Protests abuses.

This would not affect my life I wouldn't give a damn, but unfortunately, it puts the life of a lots of people out here to danger.... Grow up stop selling shit articles for money, it shouldn't be the point for Press & Media's, rather focus on how American democracy suck the world under its control....
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Wasting lifes to exterminate other's one?

Zanzibar paradise Isl


Since there was nobody and that I was seeking for a minimum of a social context, I decided to head off directly up north where it is suppose to be the nicest part of the Island. It took me nearly two hours to reach the place, but when I arrived, I was reward generously by an astonishing sunset, and a beautiful chill out place where i already knew I would settle for the rest of my trip! The perfect spot. just about enough travelers around with who talking about nothing and everything, and an amazing scenary!
I stood there for the 4 following days, and returned to the sand and problems of Darfur :)
After the Calm the storm!

After Cyprus, I went back to my beloved Western Darfur were a lots of work was waiting for me, and I was also looking forward to it. Since I have started this job, it has become a real pleasure to get to "work". Through it has ver rough time, I do love it. The day this picture was taken was a Friday, which in Sudan (like most of the muslim countries) is equivalent to the Saturday in Christian countries. Geneina, the small capital of West Darfur, we use to organise BBQ parties for the Humanitarian workers around the area, and this day was no exception. Me and a good friend of mine, Brian, had already started drinking a few beers while sitting on my prefab balcony. Finding beer is a real challenge, and it is not often that we get them, so when there is, it never last for long. We were already half drunk and talking a lot, when we suddenly saw coming this huge cloud of dust called "Haboub" (sandstorm)! He had the time to finish the beer and clear the BBQ setup before this huge monster swallow the camp into a thick and blinding curten of sand! All inhouse!!!!!
Egypt: A tourist passing by...
